Wow, God has most definitely spoken to me today, in so many ways. Here at Prairie we just had a Global Connections Conference yesterday and today. I learned a lot about God is doing in the world. For example, I learned that God is providing freedom for millions of untouchables- those who are considered lower than animals, not human, cursed by their god, hopeless mistakes of nature- in India through Dalit Freedom, which is aiming and believes that it is very possible to completely destroy the unjust caste system in this generation! Praise God! Right? These people have value as you and I do. They are not mistakes of nature, they are loved and desired by God. Anyways, I heard many wonderful things, but nothing really resonated with me to the point where I was impacted, until tonight.
Tonight I was reminded that I am young. And for us young people, there is SO much out there in front of us, there is so much our eyes have yet to see, there are so many people’s lives we have yet to impact, there are so much more for our minds to grasp, there are so many more things God Himself will reveal to us!! And I was reminded today that I need to be patient and trust in the Lord’s timing! I was reminded that I do not have my life figured out, and right now THIS is where God wants me. In a place of uncertainty, in a place of reliance on His guidance. And guys, I encourage you to really let this sink in: that we do not always need to know what we’re doing for God to be working in our lives. We do not always see His plans for our future, we do not always understand why something may or even may not be happening! But God does! And ultimately God is the one in control. It’s better for Him to know than for us to know! So I’m choosing to place my trust in Him, to have faith that even though I don’t know what I’m doing, God knows. And God is my first and my last, my alpha and my omega, in whom I can trust fully to direct me to become the person He has created me to be, to do what He wants me to do, to fulfill the things that are in store for my life! The happiest place I can be is a place in which God is in control of my life! And may this be an encouragement to you also!
Tonight I was also reminded, that you never know! As I was walking out the doors, I noticed an elderly couple behind me was coming through the doors too, and I felt like being nice so I held the door for them! And they stopped, the lady said “Your face looks familiar, is your name Eveline?” Honestly… I felt like saying who are you and why do you know my name and why have I never seen you before?! But… I didn’t say that. Apparently they had been sent a prayer card from Prairie and they had often times prayed for me, and from the picture on the card they recognized me. So tonight I was reminded through these lovely two people that God cares. And that people care. And I was reminded of the heart of elderly people. They are special to me. I have no grandparents close to me who can share their wisdom and insight with me, and for me to have such wise and goodhearted people step into my life to make a difference means the world to me. This couple immediately invited me to their home, they gave me their address and phone number and asked me to visit. How cool is that?! I think it’s pretty cool! It’s so neat how people’s lives meet and how we are impacted by others and how we impact others. I had no idea there were people praying for me, but I guess you never know what kinds of things may be impacting your lives. Tonight God reminded me that I am precious in Him and that He cares for me.
Tonight I was also given a glimpse of what Heaven will be like, and it makes me smile now just to think about it! “How great is our God, Sing with me how great is our God, and all will see how great, how great is our God!” This is the song we sang. Personally, I have come to realize and admit that I struggle with focusing on God alone when singing worship songs to God. I may be singing my heart out- I love to sing- and I can be thinking of something totally else. My mind wanders and strays from truly worshiping God, with all of me. But I do earnestly desire to worship God, with my mind, body, soul, heart, and voice- not one without the others. But my mind wanders to think of how other people are worshiping, I am distracted by the people on stage, I am distracted by lights, by children, by everything around me that keeps me from worshiping from my heart and my soul! But for this final song, I closed my eyes, I lifted my hand as high as I could, and I sang to God. I did not sing so that the person next to me could hear that I can sing, I did not close my eyes and raise my hand so that people would see my body language and think about how well I was worshiping, I did not close my eyes and wonder if people around me were struggling with distractions like I do… for this one song, I sang to God as if no one was around. It was me, and 100s of other voices singing praise and adoration to our GOD!!! And for once I was not distracted by my surroundings, but I praised God, because God is worthy of praise and I am unworthy of grace, and yet I am given grace- every day. How amazing is that?! A feeling of overwhelming peace and joy and happiness and love and everything good swept over me as I realized, “Wow, this is what Heaven will be like” We will have eternity to forever praise our Father, our God, a chorus of voices just praising God, exalting His name. I can’t wait! Can you?